the "separation" got me a lil depressing lately pardon me if i get too depressed..
recently.. it seems that there's alot of sad things gg on arnd me patrick n bb's granddads jus passed away lyk tt it kept me thinking for awhile.. that life can b that fragile.. esp when u get old.. b it of sickness or old age.. death will seem reli inevitable n it will arrive at any point of the hour. death stil seems lyk a frightening word to me. mabbe im not matured to handle that word still the dearest kins ive lost were my maternal grandparents.. but when they passed away.. i wasn even borned n neither was i of the "thinking" age
anws.. deepest condolences to yr respective grandpas..
days passed reli quickly.. felt that i aged alot in uni found a streak of white hair jus e other day n was complaining to tw n im losing alot of hair recently.. y im not losing weight!!? wonder wats gg on man. argh. and i nv get enuff slp.. dark eye bags are becoming permanent parts of my facial features now sigh... different stages of life can be so demanding at times.. and yes days passed quickly.. mid term break soon.. man i need it for a breather and to catch up..
going to malaysia to do waterfall trekking this sun nite bet it's gg to b damn fun.. but it doesn seem to lift my mood at all.. mayb yr departure took qt a huge toll on my mood.
feeling weak sometimes.. lyk i aint ready to take on the nxt challenge in my life.. keep procrastinating.. and feeling afraid wheres the GUTS aud?!
according to social work.. 1 of the basic needs of a normal human being is the sense of belonging n love.. tink i currently lack of that for awhile. sigh. n my parents are jus damn not understanding at all n stop comparing. i hate comparisons it makes me feel lousy.
